郁闷。
我笑不出
我哭不出
我什么都做不出
该怎么办？
讨厌这种无能为力的感觉
厌恶这种心神不定的焦虑
憎恨这种行尸走肉的死沉
或许
有一天
我会告诉自己
要还这张脸一堆笑容
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Thursday, March 1, 2012
期待
我期待一片辽阔的苍穹，一望无际的海洋，一声响亮的海浪声。
大海，我爱你给予我的平静，给予我的温暖，给予我的无限希望。
真想现在就投入你怀抱，安详地窝在你臂弯直到苏醒。
因为，你知道，
我笑并不代表我没烦恼；
我哭并不暗示我很悲伤；
我闷并不明示我很寂寞。
我期待一片辽阔的苍穹，一望无际的草原，一声温和的微风。
蒲公英，我爱你给予我的单纯，给予我的翅膀，给予我无限往上漂浮的憧憬。
因为，你知道，
我想飞并不代表我不会降落；
我想奔驰不暗示着放荡不羁；
我想安静并不明示我在忧心。
我只是想闭上眼睛，拥抱你们带给我的安全感，触摸湛蓝的天空，摘下点点繁星。那是我毕生的向往，而我知道它不可能会实现。
Friday, February 10, 2012
句点
如果两个人的天堂
像是温馨的墙
囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否像是一扇铁窗
候鸟失去了方向
如果你对天空向往
渴望一双翅膀
放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
听从凋零的时光
浪漫如果变成了牵绊
我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链
抛开诺言
近在咫尺的距离，远在天涯的心灵
那道墙，是你愿意筑起的吗？
害怕不该成为借口，因为已给你足够的理由。
沉默不是金，而是你给不了的安全感。
因此，我选择不再等待。
一望无际的天空，思绪沉淀，开启另一片美好的未来。。。
PS : 我说的人，不是你。别猜了 :)
Friday, January 13, 2012
回家
一上车，妈妈就摸摸我的脸，看看我的样子，说了一句：“你好像瘦了哦。。。”完了，在那一刻，我真的好想哭。是太久没见到她吗？两个星期，应该不久吧？我妈，她总是能注意别人不在意的事情。之后，她一面驾车，一面问我近两个星期所经历的事。“芙蓉好玩吗？有迷路吗？功课还好？又每天吃咖喱饭？”我一边回答一边看着她的脸颊，突然感觉妈妈脸上多了几条皱纹，头发似乎变短了些。。。刚从工作回来，想必一定筋疲力尽，但妈妈总是在开玩笑，说了几件事情后开怀大笑。妈妈从来都不是每天笑嘻嘻的性格，我知道妈妈好努力好努力想要逗我开心，想要让我知道家里一切安好，他们天天都过得非常愉快。。。妈妈的温柔，总是非常催泪。
吃饱饭后，我坐在离电视机最远的沙发上，看看正凝视电视机的爸爸。啃着花生，喝着水，爸爸的背影总给我一种哀伤的感觉。是啊，头发变少了，背脊也没像昔日那么挺直。。。爸爸的却变老了，而且老得快。没有我和哥哥在的家里，是否依然？还是冷清寂静？
有时间的话，我一定回家。这是我对自己毕生的承诺。朋友总说不要那么依赖父母，每个星期都要回家，自己该学习在外面流浪许久。但，对我来说，回家是一种责任，是一种心愿，是一种幸福。从前的父母，在耳旁轻轻告诉我，他们一定要看着我从小一步一步的长大成人，这个过程，逝去后便无法挽回，所以他们无论多忙，总会回家看看我。今年的我，也不小了。我的快速成长也代表着父母的加速老化。是他们陪着我长大，因此我也想要看着他们慢慢变老，永远永远。他们的上半生，我无法参与，但至少下半生，我能用尽心里满满的感激与爱，陪着他们，去他们想要的地方，看看漂亮的风景。
人总是要等到失去后才懂得珍惜，而我并不想等到失去后才来后悔，因为这是后悔都无法挽回的回忆。家，是爱的港湾。所以朋友们，有时间的话，回家吧！
吃饱饭后，我坐在离电视机最远的沙发上，看看正凝视电视机的爸爸。啃着花生，喝着水，爸爸的背影总给我一种哀伤的感觉。是啊，头发变少了，背脊也没像昔日那么挺直。。。爸爸的却变老了，而且老得快。没有我和哥哥在的家里，是否依然？还是冷清寂静？
有时间的话，我一定回家。这是我对自己毕生的承诺。朋友总说不要那么依赖父母，每个星期都要回家，自己该学习在外面流浪许久。但，对我来说，回家是一种责任，是一种心愿，是一种幸福。从前的父母，在耳旁轻轻告诉我，他们一定要看着我从小一步一步的长大成人，这个过程，逝去后便无法挽回，所以他们无论多忙，总会回家看看我。今年的我，也不小了。我的快速成长也代表着父母的加速老化。是他们陪着我长大，因此我也想要看着他们慢慢变老，永远永远。他们的上半生，我无法参与，但至少下半生，我能用尽心里满满的感激与爱，陪着他们，去他们想要的地方，看看漂亮的风景。
人总是要等到失去后才懂得珍惜，而我并不想等到失去后才来后悔，因为这是后悔都无法挽回的回忆。家，是爱的港湾。所以朋友们，有时间的话，回家吧！
Friday, December 30, 2011
2012 宏愿！
距离2012 年已经时日不多了，仅剩一天就要和这一年的我永远地道别。是的，一去不回头的再见。
因此，在告别之前，我想利用这个时间好好回溯今年的我。必须承认，今年，我有些幼稚；有些霸道；有些任性；有些自私；有些无理；有些顽皮；有些鲁莽；有些无知；有些敏感。
对于在今年我所无意在言语或肢体行动得罪的朋友们，请你们原谅我的过失。有时候，我会说气话而不好意思说对不起；有时我会我行我素地做事，没有顾及旁人的感受；有时我爱发脾气，搞得你们都不高兴！
在这里向大家慎重地道歉！往后，我会努力更改自己的缺点，让自己成为更好的人！
2012 宏愿？当然有！
= 永远保持乐观，并笑口常开!
= 努力生活，努力冲刺！
= 省钱！（最近什么都起价，就是工钱没涨）
= 让身旁的人天天开心！
= 成为一个更有用的人！
至于如何执行，当然是保密的咯！祝大家龙年快乐，健康快乐！
因此，在告别之前，我想利用这个时间好好回溯今年的我。必须承认，今年，我有些幼稚；有些霸道；有些任性；有些自私；有些无理；有些顽皮；有些鲁莽；有些无知；有些敏感。
对于在今年我所无意在言语或肢体行动得罪的朋友们，请你们原谅我的过失。有时候，我会说气话而不好意思说对不起；有时我会我行我素地做事，没有顾及旁人的感受；有时我爱发脾气，搞得你们都不高兴！
在这里向大家慎重地道歉！往后，我会努力更改自己的缺点，让自己成为更好的人！
2012 宏愿？当然有！
= 永远保持乐观，并笑口常开!
= 努力生活，努力冲刺！
= 省钱！（最近什么都起价，就是工钱没涨）
= 让身旁的人天天开心！
= 成为一个更有用的人！
至于如何执行，当然是保密的咯！祝大家龙年快乐，健康快乐！
Monday, December 26, 2011
Time , flies
2011 is going to come to an end. Just 5 more days. How fast time has passed. I'm actually wondering what i have done in year 2011 as most of the time i'm feeling unrealistic. I thought i should be somewhere else but i end up walking in some streets in shah alam. HAHA...it's true that i missed high school too much. Reminiscing those days where i can still do everything i like, suddenly i felt hmm...not lazy nor repugnant, but i'm more willing to stay at home, actually. HEHE.
Jan 2011. Went to KDU. My brilliant and enjoyable college life has just started. Met lots of new friends, but most importantly, we are the same kind of human and have lots of things to talk about. A gang of 8, a class of 30, we created lots of jokes and fun when lecturers were not in class. Sometimes, we went out to have lunch with lecturers! Or they gave us a ride to shopping malls :P That's how close we student and lecturers could be. Like friends like teacher, FUN?? :) You can wear anything you like (chilled classrooms all the time), do anything you want and can leave class anytime you favour. Like heaven isn't? But as a good student, i always attend classes!
Nerd people? None at all. They are smart but not the type of holding books everytime everyday. They are fun to talk with, able to joke with and nice :) We'll take care of each other and live happily everyday!
Got SPM results? Yes! and here comes JPA. I'm really grateful that the government gave me this scholarship. But, the sad thing is, i have to leave KDU. Enrollment into INTEC was sudden and INTECians are all carrying a burden studying there. That's because we are all scholars. People are very hardworking here ( compare to KDU) and sometimes it's really pressurizing. If you are not determined enough, you'll indulge in books and never come out haha..Exams and tests are frequent, but we still need entertainment! For me, study is definitely important but there are many more things that are not taught in textbooks!
People say i behave differently when i'm in hostel and when i'm in school. Of course, in school i look more serious and more behaved. hahaha...In my own house (hostel)? That's my true colours! I will be super hyper sometimes, a bit boyish, love to disturb people ,LOVE TO EAT and more!!!! When i'm focused on something, i'll be oblivious to the surrounding and do not like to be disturbed. Maybe, i speak differently at those days too! Not so manja (hehe..), not so casual, not so relaxed. Therefore, some people might misunderstand me for being not friendly...maybe it's my fault? Different people have different characters, and it takes time to fully understand someone. Maybe i should change to be a better person next year! :)
Time flies after i came into INTEC. Because we are surrounded by books hahaha...tired of books sometimes..hahaha...so came the holiday! 1 and a half month! Seemed to be so long but now everything is going to end. Went to all shopping malls in PJ and walked through KL. Pavilion, Farenheit 88, I Utama, Ikano, The Curve, Mid Valley, Sunway Pyramid and more with friends. Wonderful?? HAHAHA...unforgettable also of those times where i stoned at home and watched tv the whole day! Well....classes are starting soon...enjoy the remaning holidays! :)
Jan 2011. Went to KDU. My brilliant and enjoyable college life has just started. Met lots of new friends, but most importantly, we are the same kind of human and have lots of things to talk about. A gang of 8, a class of 30, we created lots of jokes and fun when lecturers were not in class. Sometimes, we went out to have lunch with lecturers! Or they gave us a ride to shopping malls :P That's how close we student and lecturers could be. Like friends like teacher, FUN?? :) You can wear anything you like (chilled classrooms all the time), do anything you want and can leave class anytime you favour. Like heaven isn't? But as a good student, i always attend classes!
Nerd people? None at all. They are smart but not the type of holding books everytime everyday. They are fun to talk with, able to joke with and nice :) We'll take care of each other and live happily everyday!
Got SPM results? Yes! and here comes JPA. I'm really grateful that the government gave me this scholarship. But, the sad thing is, i have to leave KDU. Enrollment into INTEC was sudden and INTECians are all carrying a burden studying there. That's because we are all scholars. People are very hardworking here ( compare to KDU) and sometimes it's really pressurizing. If you are not determined enough, you'll indulge in books and never come out haha..Exams and tests are frequent, but we still need entertainment! For me, study is definitely important but there are many more things that are not taught in textbooks!
People say i behave differently when i'm in hostel and when i'm in school. Of course, in school i look more serious and more behaved. hahaha...In my own house (hostel)? That's my true colours! I will be super hyper sometimes, a bit boyish, love to disturb people ,LOVE TO EAT and more!!!! When i'm focused on something, i'll be oblivious to the surrounding and do not like to be disturbed. Maybe, i speak differently at those days too! Not so manja (hehe..), not so casual, not so relaxed. Therefore, some people might misunderstand me for being not friendly...maybe it's my fault? Different people have different characters, and it takes time to fully understand someone. Maybe i should change to be a better person next year! :)
Time flies after i came into INTEC. Because we are surrounded by books hahaha...tired of books sometimes..hahaha...so came the holiday! 1 and a half month! Seemed to be so long but now everything is going to end. Went to all shopping malls in PJ and walked through KL. Pavilion, Farenheit 88, I Utama, Ikano, The Curve, Mid Valley, Sunway Pyramid and more with friends. Wonderful?? HAHAHA...unforgettable also of those times where i stoned at home and watched tv the whole day! Well....classes are starting soon...enjoy the remaning holidays! :)
Thursday, December 8, 2011
给，你
你，是我生命中很重要的一个人，你知道吗？
你的性格，与我相似；
有点大剌剌，有点八婆，有点自恋，有点懵懂；
有些疯癫，有些笨拙，有些冲动，有些多愁善感；
一点的爱美，再加上一点的善良；
这就是你和我。
麦霸？不算。
我们只是爱唱歌。
我们爱将喜欢的歌大声唱出来；
爱用歌词影射当时的心情与情形；
爱用歌声宣泄一切。
爱幻想？的确。至少以前是。
总是希望戏里温柔帅气的男主角出现，
但随着年龄增长，
一切的幻想仿佛烟消云散，
但仍不忘的是真爱的美丽与幸福。
你是位纯朴可爱随和漂亮善解人意乐于助人的女孩，你总明白我在想什么，知道我要什么，清楚我爱做什么。 感谢上帝让我俩相识，更感谢你多年来的扶持和照顾，我一定一定会珍惜这份友谊！
今天是你的生日！想在这儿说声生日快乐！愿一切平安顺利，身体健康，友谊永存！
你的性格，与我相似；
有点大剌剌，有点八婆，有点自恋，有点懵懂；
有些疯癫，有些笨拙，有些冲动，有些多愁善感；
一点的爱美，再加上一点的善良；
这就是你和我。
麦霸？不算。
我们只是爱唱歌。
我们爱将喜欢的歌大声唱出来；
爱用歌词影射当时的心情与情形；
爱用歌声宣泄一切。
爱幻想？的确。至少以前是。
总是希望戏里温柔帅气的男主角出现，
但随着年龄增长，
一切的幻想仿佛烟消云散，
但仍不忘的是真爱的美丽与幸福。
你是位纯朴可爱随和漂亮善解人意乐于助人的女孩，你总明白我在想什么，知道我要什么，清楚我爱做什么。 感谢上帝让我俩相识，更感谢你多年来的扶持和照顾，我一定一定会珍惜这份友谊！
今天是你的生日！想在这儿说声生日快乐！愿一切平安顺利，身体健康，友谊永存！
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